I tried killing myself last night it has never been that bad. I can’t get that way again and the only way for me to do that is for me to finally do what I have wanted to for a few years. Which is leave. I cut last night and the marks are no where near the way I feel. If Helene, Richard can not understand what there child needs then there is no hope. I have given chances and I’m done I should have realized this was not going to work out…but wait I forgot i have hope for people. Well not anymore you fuck up in my life no more chances. I have a good feeling that if I leave and everything settles down and everyone realizes whats best for me everything will be ok. I’m always right when it comes to this family, Never have I been wrong. I’ve made mistakes I know that but this time its not…Its for my own good and my safety I’m capable of a lot and I’m not sticking around to find out what I can do

Last night was my breaking point. I realize today what I need to do to be happy and have a good future. I’m writing this letter to tell you that I am worn out, done and miserable. I am going to put up with you today and this family, but I am leaving tomorrow. I am leaving and going outta state. Theres no point in me being miserable any more. I don’t care what people say I am 18 and considered an adult. I have clothes, jobs lined up and I don’t need a car. No one in my life has helped me out when it comes to my family, so instead of putting up with it and dealing with it another minute i am leaving. I get to talk to my counselor today at 4 on the phone and I am just going to tell her what I am going to do. I have a new phone, number, bank everything new life new me. I will support myself and be on my own till people in my life realize I can’t deal with them and need to be on my own. I’m writing this because this all started 2 weekends ago and now this is what happens. I’m not running away I’m starting my life…..People leave and start there lives thats what I’m doing. If anyone knew what was best for me it would be leave me alone, let me live my life and do what i have always wanted to do. No more fighting no more micromanaging my life. I am done so goodbye to michigan to my life. i’m moving on.